Chemo makes you lose your hair, surgery often leads to the loss of both breasts, and with this comes an inherent loss of femininity. The Feeling Beautiful Again program that iGoPink offers was a pleasant surprise and allowed me to focus on the things that I love about myself. It brought me happiness when it was really hard to find it on my own. These small acts of kindness really do make a difference. I especially loved the touch of including natural deodorant. It’s easy to feel as though you’ve lost your sense of ‘self’. But this program reminded me on how important it is to show yourself some much-needed love. Not just outer beauty, but inner beauty as well.
I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Triple Negative breast cancer in March of 2018, and I am currently receiving radiation treatment. Since my diagnosis, I am much more conscious about my mental health. I’m taking time for myself for the first time in a long time. It has forced me to slow down, but that isn’t always a bad thing. I practice yoga much more often and focus on meditation. It really allows me to notice all the positives in my life that I had previously taken for granted. Cancer ironically gives you small blessings every day.
Every day I am surrounded with such love and support. I find the most joy in the time I spend with my five-year-old son. He pierces my heart with love every single day and loving him is like feeling the sunshine on me from both sides. He reminds me what I am fighting for and makes it all worth it at the end of the day.
Focusing on love is what keeps me going. You don’t need to be strong every single day. Rely on the support of your family and loved ones. Some of the best moments for me going through treatment was when my boyfriend would come up behind me and just hold me. He didn’t have to say a word. A touch or a hug can mean everything to a cancer patient when they are feeling isolated or alone. Love really means everything.
Be patient with yourself and fight every day!